Life Is Blues Rock

dedication to my mum

2009-05-14T14:11:00.002-07:00

LITTLE WING (she is my little wing)
by JIMI HENDRIX

Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

LOVE U MUM

dedication to my mum

2009-05-14T14:11:00.001-07:00

Art is everywhere for everyone

2009-05-03T13:19:00.000-07:00

Photography Club anniversary

2009-05-03T13:16:00.000-07:00

this is CSMU photographers

My Precious

2009-05-03T13:12:00.000-07:00

mum, sis , daddy

taken @ tony romas ... tapi kalau bapak aku... asik2 pronounce tony lomas... belasah je la bah...
time ni paling best.. kiteorg makan... murah gile bill... padahal order byk gile... 5 org punye makan bayar 120 je....
sbb dlm air abah aku ade lipas... mmg silap la... da la abah aku ni jenis panas baran.... terkucil manager tu kene maki... tu yg dapat discount... hahha caya lah abah... lu mmg rock..

anyway love you and miss you guys so much....(

WINTER EUROTRIP

2009-05-03T13:07:00.000-07:00

Vasan who took this picture..

taken mase winter trip ... kali ni kiteorg ber5 gerak dari london to paris dgn..
gile sejuk harem la malam tu.... semue pakai jaket nipis...biar sejuk janji bergaye harem ... terutame eddy yg pakai kasut converse nipis tu... hahah nasib kaki ko tak frostbite...
yg best nye.. dari london ni.... utk lintas pegi france kene naik feri... this is the best part la...
dlm feri tu pon best.. warm je.. at least merase jugak la naik feri dari uk to france...
mmg wajib try....
tatau nak cite camne nye best...
try ah!

My birthday celebration @ DIVAN

2009-05-03T13:03:00.000-07:00

HOYEH :)

CLASS MATE YANG SUPERB

tak sabar la plak!!!

anyway thanks a lot guys...
a moment to remember !

Mitch Mitchell - remembering THE DRUM HERO

2009-05-03T12:58:00.000-07:00

As I lay down to go to sleep on the night for some reason I found my thoughts turning to my first real drum hero and one of my musical life's biggest influences, Mitch Mitchell. As I lay there, I began a mental survey of his work, from the early recordings with the Jimi Hendrix Experience through Hendrix's last official album recorded what seemed like a long time later but which was in fact only a few years later, The Cry of Love. My concentrated overview, pondering Mitch's trademark early style--prodigious technique, distinctive touch, beautiful sound, swinging feel, fire, crisp articulation, and strong musical contributions to Hendrix's visionary musical innovations--and later work--more slack, somewhat more tired feel, more slack tuning, yet still strongly contributory and irreplaceably integral to the music that Hendrix was then making--triggered indelible memories, powerful associations, deep appreciation, and pure awe. It also caused me to wonder if he still played. I knew he endorsed DW drums, but I had no idea what he was doing. I wondered what he might sound like now, so many years later. I considered his distinction as the only surviving member of the original Jimi Hendrix Experience. I also wondered why on earth I was spending so much time lying there engaged in such a thorough analysis of Mitch Mitchell's music making and its overwhelming influence on my own life and music as a drummer. Then I fell asleep, forgetting all about it.
Mitch was my favorite drummer when I was a kid, and his busy, jazz-drenched rock style led to my enthusiasm for drummers charting similar territory who came shortly thereafter: Clive Bunker with Jethro Tull and Michael Giles in the first King Crimson band. Later in my life I realized how this foundation helped lead me straight into the world of jazz drumming that would become my area of endeavor once I was about16 years old (and after Hendrix died). Mitch Mitchell not only set me up for my next major, life-altering drumming encounter to follow, which was my hearing Tony Williams for the first time, but he made my appreciation for every major influence to come possible, from Elvin Jones to Jack De Johnette to Roy Haynes to Sonship Theus to Tony Oxley to Pierre Favre and so on down the line. While my earliest drumming experiences were that of playing Charlie Watts parts to old Rolling Stones records at my friend (and young drum prodigy) Pat Pile's house, it was Mitch who opened my ears and mind to what drumming could be in the hands of a more complex and flashy master. Mitch and the Hendrix Experience totally changed my life.

Good design is felt

2009-02-07T13:13:00.001-08:00

Good design is felt, originally uploaded by gentlepurespace.

got it from flickr explored

this is simply -good photo

I amsterdam

2009-01-11T10:53:00.000-08:00

jasperh and his gf laura

felix , izzy , me and eddy (johnny) happy new year 2009!

me with felix - boombaklatt!

yearghhh - me with jasperh

celebrating new year 2009 in amsterdam

introducing jasperh yg pakai snowcap ni... and felix without snowcap tu... muke stone cam harem..
kiteorg stay umah jasperh 4 hari... baik gile mamat ni.. cool habes.. da la kasi kiteorg stay free... kasi gune net la... masak la.... siap jemput kat train station naik kete lagi.. nasib la ko bwk kete jasperh time tu... aku rase die cam dewa yg memahami lak kiteorg yg tgh beku tepi jalan... time tu amsterdam -5 ma... dari AMSTEL station... utk gi ke rumah jasperh ni... turun kat Demien Zuid.. about 5station stop la...
actually si jasperh ni still student.. study humangeography... umah die ni pon.. sebnarnye bukan umah... tapi bekas office... gile cool habes tempat die.. even bersepah2.. tapi aku suke ar... rock habes...
yg lagi sorang ni felix... kawan si jasperh.. from germany.. mamat.. ni sempoi haram.. senang cite.. best gile lepak ng dorang....felix ni jenis artistic... die mmg minat painting.. lukisan2 abstract.. die ade lukis satu untuk aku... thanks felix...
stone stone stone everyday.....amsterdam mmg best... org2 die sgt baik.. tatau nak cite...
aku harap2 dapat lepak ng jasperh and felix lagi... miss the moment staying with them...

i love amsterdam...
so

I amsterdam

keras , beku , kaku

2009-01-11T10:36:00.000-08:00

since aku baru balik dari eurotrip... 2-3 hari lepas... still takde mood nak tulis paper la.. pasal hari2 sejuk2.. sejuk gile .. harini -17 gile haremm nye sejuk.. tangan aku ni still keras lagi ni.. nak type pon payah...
trip ok la.. cume tak enjoy.. sejuk.. byk bende tak discover kat amsterdam, brussel, paris and krakown
asik2 masuk kedai.. sbb nak panas kan badan... arghhh pressure...
byk bende nak cite time trip ni.. mcm2 jadik..
tp mlas nak type.. nanti la kot.. bile2 aku free..
nak post gambar skali...

walaweyy sejuk haremmmm!!! nasib aku beli glove berghaus kat london.. baru la rase tangan aku ni mcm ade.. kalau tak.. tak rase pape...

HINTS AND TIPS WHEN BUYING A SECONDHAND CAR

2008-12-21T08:43:00.000-08:00

HINTS AND TIPS WHEN BUYING A SECONDHAND CAR

What to look out for when buying used cars

This is always a mine field and nothing guarantees success but there are a few things to look out for before parting with your hard earned cash.

Obviously different countries have different rules but I am sure a lot of the following would apply wherever you are located.

PRE-SHOPPING ADVICE

The depreciation of used cars is much less than new cars and, therefore, they are a more cost effective purchase.

Get your finance in place before choosing your car, this saves time as you know exactly which vehicles you can or cannot afford.

Be aware of the current "going rate" of vehicles before purchasing by checking guides available from most newsagents that list the value of most used cars.

Consider all different outlets such as trade-ins at new car dealerships, private sales etc., not just secondhand car dealers. In the U.K., however, the purchaser has more rights and safeguards when purchasing through trade rather than a private sale.

Cars less than three years old which have been driven 10,000 - 15,000 annually are probably the best buys. An average annual mileage is about 10,000, so for a 3 year old car mileage between 25,000 and 35,000 would be reasonable. Anything over this could have been used for business and driven hard.

Small and medium saloons and hatchbacks are easier to maintain and repair than convertibles or luxury cars.

GENERAL ADVICE WHEN INSPECTING VEHICLES

Check the engine plate on the car corresponds with that given on the registration documents and that it has not been tampered with or changed.

Never buy a car without test driving is yourself. First make sure you are insured to drive it then, if possible, take it on a drive that covers a mixture of conditions i.e. fast motorway driving, slow urban driving, twisting roads and don't forget to check reverse.

BODYWORK

Always inspect the bodywork in good light.

Look for corrosion or rust. Rust is probably the most damaging thing of all on cars over five years old. Surface blisters can be relatively harmless and easily treated but corrosion coming from the inside of the body panels is more serious.

Look for rust at the top and rear of the front wings, along the side sills, below front and rear bumpers and the bottoms of the doors.

Sometimes a rust blemish on the paintwork can indicate more serious corrosion underneath. Press the panel gently with your thumb. If there is a cracking noise it indicates advanced corrosion.

It is usually not worth repairing rust that has perforated the bottom of doors, the bodywork around the front and rear screen rubbers, on trailing edges of bootlids or tailgates and leading edges of bonnets and on rear wing panels. These can only be repaired expensively by specialists and subsequent painting is costly.

Walk around the car and look along the doors and wings from each of the four corners. Any crash repairs will show up if they have not been well done. You will see ripples or a change in the texture of the paint if there is a lot of body filler underneath. Take a small magnet with you, it will be attracted to metal but not to plastic body filler. Look also for variations in the paint colour.

Water stains in the boot, around windows, on carpets and around the sunroof opening may indicate leaks.

STRUCTURAL BODYWORK

Look for rust perforation on inner wings, the bulkhead and any cross members and chassis members visible under the bonnet. If you see any, reject the car.

Beneath the car check side sills, chassis legs, cross members and subframes. Tap suspicious areas with a lightweight hammer, or push hard with your hand to detect the 'give' of weakened metal. Be wary of freshly applied underseal - could be hiding weakened metal.

Check the floorpan for corrosion.

Look at brake pipes, if they are crusted or pitted with rust, these could be dangerous.

Check suspension and steering mounting points for serious corrosion, especially under the bonnet.

COLLISION DAMAGE

A car that has been in a collision can be dangerous, especially if its suspension and/or steering have been damaged. Examine under the bonnet for damage, creasing or replaced inner wings (unsightly welds are a give-away). Also inspect the engine bay forward panels and forward chassis legs for repairs or creases.

When test driving the car the steering should be consistent with no tendency to pull either left or right.

Look under the carpet between the front and back doors for signs of welding or repair in case two halves of different cars have been welded together (cut and shut), which is extremely dangerous.

INSIDE THE CAR

Check the odometer, if the numbers are out of line the mileage may have been altered.

Look to see if the mileage corresponds with the general condition of the car. A worn brake pedal and wear marks on the gear lever indicate a car that might have done more than 60,000 miles. A worn or sagging driver's seat and carpet are other signs of high mileage.

A very low mileage may indicate the car might have been left unused for long periods or used only for short journeys. Both can cause engine problems. A car that has been regularly used and serviced is a better bet.

ENGINE

Have a look at the general state of the engine. A dirty engine and surrounding area suggests that the car hasn't been well looked after and that servicing may have been neglected. Conversely, a sparkling clean engine could have been steam cleaned to disguise problems such as oil leaks etc.

Before starting the engine remove the dipstick and check the colour of the oil. If it is very black the car has probably not been recently, or regularly, serviced. Also check for beige "mayonnaise" on the dipstick, a possible symptom of head gasket leakage.

Check the quantity and colour of coolant. It should be the colour of antifreeze not rusty red. An engine that has been run without antifreeze may have problems.

Listen to the engine starting up from cold. The oil light should go out soon after the engine starts, if it doesn't there may be engine wear.

Heavy rattling or knocking noises shortly after start up could indicate wear of the crankshaft and big-end bearings. Listen for clattering or light knocking noises from the top of the engine which indicate camshaft wear.

Turn on the ignition and open the throttle sharply. Check for black or blue smoke from the exhaust. Blue smoke comes from burning oil and shows engine wear, whereas black smoke is un-burnt fuel and has many possible causes. Check for smooth idling when warm.

When test driving check the engine does not misfire but pulls strongly and cleanly. Check there are no pinking sounds (i.e. metallic rattling sound that occurs when the throttle is open). If the car does misfire and the engine has electronic fuel or ignition control only buy it if the misfire is put right first.

Keep an eye on the temperature gauge or warning light which may indicate overheating.

Finally check for oil leaks.

TRANSMISSION

If the car has a manual gearbox, check the clutch operates smoothly and all gears engage easily. If the gear change stiffens as revs increase the clutch may be worn. Check for clutch slip by driving the car up a hill in top gear.

When driving change down into each gear from a higher speed than normal to test the synchromesh. If the gears baulk or crunch, or if the gearbox whines excessively, gearbox overhaul or replacement are the only solutions.

If the car has automatic transmission check the transmission dipstick for correct fluid level, this is best done with the engine hot and idling. Also smell the dipstick, if it smells burnt steer clear of the car!

When driving check that the transmission changes down into each gear properly under full acceleration and at the right time.

SUSPENSION

Check shock absorbers (dampers) by pushing down hard on the bodywork at the corners and letting go. The car should rebound once just past the level position, then go back i.e. one and a half swings. Any more than this indicates the shock absorbers need replacing.

Listen for knocks from the suspension over poor road surfaces which could indicate worn bushes, joint and dampers. Take a note of the cars handling, if it is vague, "floaty" or bouncy, suspect worn dampers.

Check for fluid leakage from the dampers or struts. Slight weeping is acceptable any more is not.

STEERING

If the steering is vague and heavy the tyres may be worn or under pressurised.

Rock the steering wheel gently while watching the front wheel, there should not be any noticeable delay between steering wheel and road wheel movement. Free play accompanied by a knock will fail the MOT test.

Check for wheel wobble at speed. This is often attributable to unbalanced front wheels. Steering wheel shimmy at low speeds indicated distorted wheel rims.

BRAKES

The brake pedal should offer good resistance and not sink most of the way to the floor when applied.

If a servo is fitted, check that it works by pumping the brake pedal several times, holding the pedal down and starting the engine. You should feel the pedal creep down as it operates.

The care should not swerve when the brakes are applied hard at speed. If it does, it may have seized or leaking wheel cylinders or calipers.

If the car judders when you apply the brakes this implies distorted front brake discs. Inspect discs for heavy scoring or unpolished or corroded areas, they may need renewing.

Check the brake hoses under the wheel arches for cracking, chafing, swelling or leaks.

TYRES

Check the treads and side walls on all four tyres (plus spare wheel) there should be more than 2mm of tread all over the tyre (I think the legal limit is 1.6mm in the U.K. at present) and the sidewalls should not be cracked or damaged. Uneven wear on treads suggests steering, tracking or suspension problems.

BEFORE MAKING AN OFFER

If the car passes your inspection and test drive here are a few more things to bear in mind before making an offer:-

In the U.K. every car over three years old must have an annual MOT and, therefore, ensure the certificate is current (although this does not guarantee the car is still safe).

Ask to see service and repair history and well as repair receipts. Treat a denial that these receipts exist with suspicion.

Check the mileage on the odometer tallies with service and repair receipts.

Check the car's registration and chassis number matches those on the registration document.

If the vendor is not the person named on the registration document ask for written confirmation from the registered owner that the vendor is authorised to sell the vehicle on his behalf.

Ask if it is permissible to have the car inspected by an independent mechanic. If it is (and you can afford the added expense) ask the mechanic to carry out a cylinder compression test to assess the condition of the engine and also to estimate the cost of any repairs he thinks may be warranted. You can then ask for the cost of these repairs to be deducted from the asking price.

If you have a car to trade in don't mention the fact until you have negotiated a discount for the one you want to buy.

If you are buying from a trader, depending on the value of the car, it may be worth investing in a warranty. Read the warranty small print very carefully as some warranties exclude more than they cover.

for futher tips go to http://www.hintsandthings.co.uk

euphoria

2008-12-20T12:55:00.000-08:00

letih cam haram..

balik dari town

trus gi main futsal...

main takleh blah..

rembat bersepah- sepah...

something has gone away

2008-12-19T10:35:00.000-08:00

haiseh... disebabkan aku da ponteng class time raya haji.. aku kene rewek plak endocrinology.. malas tul la...rewek lagi.. kali ni.. cikgu kasi aku patient diabetis... da lame da aku tinggal bab2 endo... benci tul la.. aku tak ske tol bab2 endo, hormone2 ni...
tapi patient aku kali ni agak menarik... diabetis mellitus type 1 ... semue complication pon da ade... dari retinopathy, nephropathy,angio-neuropathy tinggal cardiopathy je aku tak sempat check.. hoho.. sian pakcik ni.. mate da kabur2 da tak nampak... nak kencing pon da problem ,
nih ade satu xray kaki pakcik ni sempat aku snap...
tgk right foot die.. pelik kan... bone die semue shift medially...

kalau tere..cube la teke kenape? hoho...
last month dah wat operation.. da remove da tulang2 senget tu.. hehe

lagi satu... utk patient diabetis ni.. on inspection ...kat tapak tangan... slalu dpt reveal -

Dupuytren
ape tu dupuytren?
an abnormal thickening of the fascia (the tissue just beneath the skin of the palm). It often starts with firm lumps in the palm. In some patients, firm cords will develop beneath the skin, stretching from the palm into the fingers
cause of dupuytren ni.. usually kalau ikut cikgu aku.. is idiopathic.. means tatau punce...
tapi usually kalau org tu ade masalah biochemical factor on fascia..
tp mmg slalunye leh nampak kat petient yg ade diabetis ni..
dah la time tu dah kol 4 lebey.. penat da.... aku nak abes kan cepat2.. asal aku tanye soalan kat die.. die asik tanye aku dari mane la, lagi bape taun la.. mcm2 la.. sedar2 nak dekat sejam lebey lepak ng die..
tapi takpela.. sian lak kat die.. cam boring kan.. layan jer..
so far glucose level die dah control ...
harap2 die ok la
slamat...

Selamat hari raya aidiladha

2008-12-14T07:40:00.000-08:00

with steph , name islam aishah (hehe)

human translation

2008-12-14T07:38:00.001-08:00

world without strangers

at zakiah`s place

2008-12-13T01:48:00.000-08:00

cheese cake choc topping

process wat cake cheese, aku wat ng mirul sebnarnye.. atas kekreativan mirul, die tambah lemon terlbih.. masam lak.. janji rock lah

ape kah makhluk ni?

Photography Mono Concept

2008-12-11T12:11:00.000-08:00

concept - black n white
aperture 1.8
b&w are best process with high tone and contrast

camwhoring

taken by mirul (konon2 concept oldskool)

Travel Crimea

2008-12-11T05:49:00.000-08:00

trip of the day SEVASTOPOL
- KHERSON - remnant from greek
-BALAKLAVA - lagoon with a romantic view port ( mcm porto kat portugal seh)
journey - 1hour 30 min , by bus 9am-10.30am

with steph

closed already ma!

introducing mr prince... wtf?

at balaklava , captain explaining the history of balaklava lagoon as a defensive unit occupied by secret gate and now functioning as a hangar.

at herson , church which is still remain until now , it was believed , a remnant from greek.

flying boy!

sevastopol , famous statue

dan aku.. hoho

colourful scrub

2008-12-02T06:34:00.000-08:00

curik gambar ni dari frenster mus.. agak smart gambar ni... sebab dorang pakai scrub mcm2 warne.. cam nak gi pesta pon ade...hahha

diabetic foot

2008-12-02T05:50:00.000-08:00

If you have diabetes, your blood sugar levels are too high. Over time, this can damage your nerves or blood vessels. Nerve damage from diabetes can cause you to lose feeling in your feet. You may not feel a cut, a blister or a sore. Foot injuries such as these can cause ulcers and infections. Serious cases may even lead to amputation. Damage to the blood vessels can also mean that your feet do not get enough blood and oxygen. It is harder for your foot to heal, if you do get a sore or infection.

You can help avoid foot problems.

First, control your blood sugar levels.

Good foot hygiene is also crucial.

theatre of dream

2008-12-02T05:27:00.000-08:00

surgery on abdominal hernia

saje semak.. hoho
impian utk jadik surgeon
insyallah

Pediatric Titova Hospital

2008-12-02T05:11:00.001-08:00

patient2 dari ward pulmo and gastro.. kecik2 lak dah sakit.. tapi takpe.. nak wat cane kan.. janji korang best.. (pose masing2 bkan main agi)

mate die..smart gile...awek ni da besar sure cun..hehe

ni la anak2 aku.. tapi yg dpn skali tu bukan mak diorang la
hehe .. yg baju kelabu.. tu along... name die rose a.k.a
( rosnah mat aris ) , yg ke due tu kak ngah , name die lia (norlia ghani) , ujung skali tu no 3... name die mina ( ruminah sidek ).. yg laki sorang.. tu anak abah yg last skali... kiteorg panggil die harry atau name sebenarye HSBC ( harun salim banchik)
semoge anak2 abah jadik budak2 baik...:)

When a Stroke Is Not a Stroke

2008-11-26T10:12:00.000-08:00

Presenting Complaint

A 51-year-old man with AIDS presented to the emergency department with right-sided weakness, diplopia, dysarthria, and gait disturbance.
History of Presenting Illness

The patient awoke with numbness of the right side of his face, arm, and leg 8 days earlier. After arising from bed that morning, he noted difficulty lifting objects with his right arm because of weakness, and a tendency to veer to the right when walking. These symptoms subsequently became slightly worse, and he developed horizontal diplopia and dysarthria within a few days. His weakness and gait instability became significantly worse, and he came to the emergency department because he could no longer walk.
Past Medical History

The patient was known to be HIV-positive for 10 years. His most recent CD4+ cell count, 4 months earlier, was 32/mm3. His viral load was unknown. At that time, he began highly active antiretroviral therapy (HAART). His history was also significant for an episode of Pneumocystis carinii pneumonia (PCP), and hepatitis C, cardiomyopathy, chronic renal insufficiency, and anemia.
Medications

Medications at the time of presentation included trimethoprim-sulfamethoxazole, atazanavir, tenofovir, valacyclovir, and lamivudine/zidovudine. He had no known allergies.
Family History

The patient's mother had coronary artery disease. He had 1 daughter who was in good health.
Social History

The patient was divorced, and resided with ex-wife and a friend. He had a 30-plus pack-year smoking history. He denied past or present use of alcohol. He reported a remote history of injected drug use; he quit 5 years before presentation.

Final Diagnosis

Progressive Multifocal Leukoencephalopathy

diagnosis nak gile2 je... hoho

Behind the filthy life

2008-11-26T09:37:00.000-08:00

Nilai RM 5

Jalan di situ berlopak-lopak besar,terhinjut- hinjut Honda Civic 1.8 ini dilambung graviti. Ery yang duduk disebelah sudah berapakali bangun tidur, dengkurnya makin menjadi. Siaran radio sekejap berbunyi, bercampur-campur. Sekejap radio perak, sekejap kedah mengikutlambungan kereta. Aku terpaksa memperlahankan kereta melalui satu perkampungan nelayanyang kotor, beberapa budak-budak kecil dengan muka yang comot dan hinguskering di muka berlari-lari. Seorang daripadanya tidak berseluarlangsung,geli.

Ada orang tua berbasikal mengangkat tangan memberi salam.Aku menaikkan cermin kereta, melepaskan rengusan garang. Ery sudah bangun, mengesat-ngesat mata, menggeliat kasar. Mengeluarkanbunyi seperti kerbau. Perempuan sial, sopannya cuma didepanjantan,tersipu- sipu dan bersimpuh malu. Hipokrit ini cuma tahu bersolekdan berdandan bila mahu keluar, di rumah dia seperti perempuan baruberanak,t-shirt goboh dengan kain pelekat senteng dan rambut usaiseperti orang gila, mengeluarkan bau hapak dan masam. Ada sebuah jeti buruk disitu. Beberapa nelayan baru sampai dari lautdisambut peraih-peraih buncit. Memunggah ikan. Ery sudah separuhmenggelepar diluar meliar mata mencari hafik,tunangnya. Aku duduk sahajadi dalam kereta. Aku bencikan pantai hanyir seperti ini. Beberapa gadisbertudung labuh lalu dengan menaiki basikal dan memberi senyuman. Akumenghempas pintu serta merta. Memang benar. Perempuan kolot sepertimereka itu, patut dijerukkan saja di tempat busuk ini.Tolol!

Kemudian, datang seorang tua menghampiri tingkap belakang. Aku sedikitmarah, mengetap bibir. "Nak apa?!" Dia terketar terkejut, sedikitberundur. " Assalammualaikum nak, pakcik ambil upah cuci kereta.." Dia bercakapdengan pandangan yang tumpah ke kakinya, tertib dan seperti takut. Di tangannya ada satu baldi buruk air sabun dengan tuala koyak di bahu.Baju kemeja kusam koyak di poket, cuma dibutang dua menampakkan dadanyayang leper ditolak tulang selangka. Seluar hijau pudar senteng. Tidakberkasut dengan kuku hitam dan kaki yang reput. Menjijikkan! " Basuh sajalah, tapi, awas!! Kalau calar kereta aku,tahulah macamanaaku nak ajar kau!!" Berkata sambil meliarkan mata pada Ery yang tengahtersengih-sengih meramas-ramas tangan dengan tunangnya itu. Duduk pulabersimpuh, membelai-belai rambut. Boleh pula kaki yang asyik dudukterkangkang dirumah itu di tutup rapat. Orang tua itu tertunduk-tunduk mengucap terima kasih. Ah, miskin sepertiini tunduk-tunduk meminta simpati, tiada maruah. Terus saja diamenggosok satu demi satu tayar kereta. Memberus sambil terbatuk-batuk,meludahkan kahak hijau. Pengotor, sial!

Aku mengalihkan mata ke pantai. Peraih berdekah ketawa menepuk- nepukbelakang nelayan kurus itu. Menyerahkan beberapa ringgit. Nelayan itutersenyum pahit. Menyelitkannya di celahkopiah. Itulah, siapa suruhkecil-kecil tidak mahu belajar pandai-pandai, masuk universiti dan kerjabesar. Tidaklah hidup susah seperti itu. Bodoh!! " Sudah nak!!" Pakcik itu datang setelah 20 minit. Aku sudah malashendak memandangnya, dan kuhulurkan sahaja RM 5. Aku rasa itu sudahcukup lumayan untuk fakir seperti dia. Cepat-cepatlah dia pergi. Tapi,sebaliknya dia memegang lama duit itu. Tunduk dan menangis tersedu-sedu.Menambahkan kerut dan mengelap mata dengan hujung kemejanya. "Kenapa ni? Gila?!" " Nak, seumur hidup pakcik hidup susah ini, pakcik kerja memetikkelapa,mencuci tandas di restoran, kemudian mencuci kereta, belumpernah pakcik terima upah sebanyak ini. Paling banyak pun hanyaseringgit." Dia bersungguh-sungguh melihat ke dalam mata aku.Timbul pula sedikitsimpati, sedikit sayu. Rasa yang tidak pernah bertakung dalam hati kerasaku selama 25 tahun ini. Dia melipat kecil wang itu diikat simpul didalam sapu tangan biru muda. Pergi dengan terhinggut menangis denganbaldi buruk ke arah sekumpulan nelayan.

Aku memandangnya denganpandangan kosong. Ini warna kemiskinan, aku tidak pernah lihat. Akumembesar dalam hutan batu, di kota lumpur. Keras diselaput wangkemewahan, kemudian keluar dengan segulung ijazah. Bekerja seperti oranggila untuk duit. Biarlah,kalau aku mahu bantu, ramai lagi diluar sana .Lupakan saja.. Ery memanggil aku dari sebuah kedai makan di situ. Hampir 10 minit akumelayan meluat- melihat Ery yang tersipu-sipu menggagau mee dengan sududan garfu. Kemudian, kelibat orang tua itu melintasi kami, menjinjingdua beg besar hitam berisi barang. Hairan, takkanlah dengan wang RM 5dia boleh membeli barang sebanyak itu. Mustahil. Atau dia memang adaduit tapi,berlagak seperti fakir. Mungkin..

Dengan rasa ragu, aku menghampirinya. Dia memberi senyum lembut dan akudengan rasa curiga bertanya terus. " Eh, pakcik. Tadi saya bagi limaringgit, takkan dapat beli barang sebanyak ini?".Bunyinya sepertimeninggi. Pakcik itu seperti terkejut. Dia diam dan tunduk seketika. Pahit menelan air liur.Meletakkan dua beg plastik di atas tanah,membukanya satupersatu,perlahan- lahan dan terketar. Aku terkedu. Terkejut dan malu.

Pakcik itu mengeluarkan sapu tangan tadidan membuka simpulannya. Wang aku tadi, masih terlipat kemas. " Nak, pakcik tahu. Kami ini orang susah, nak. Hidup seperti najis,dibuang dan ditolak-tolak. Kalian pekup hidung melihat kami. Ambillah ini semula.Pakcik juga punya maruah. Kadang-kadang maruah kami lebih tinggi darikamu orang kaya yang hidup berpura-pura, menipu orang. Harga diri kamimasih kuat. Bila anak menyoal pakcik seperti tadi, anak telah memijakharga diri pakcik. Anak seperti menghukum pakcik sebagai orang tual sialyang berpura-pura susah. Ambillah semula,nak." Pakcik itu meletakkannya di atas tangan aku, dan aku menolak,berkali-kali. Aku sudah menangis, meminta maaf, berkali-kali. Tidak mahumenyentuh langsung wang itu, hingga jatuh di hujung kaki. "Lihat, itulah tempat duit. Di tapak kaki. Duit itu perlu, tapi jangansampai ia lebih tinggi dari harga diri. Jangan sampai duit menjadikankita angkuh dan bongkak.

Pakcik ke sana tadi, tempat nelayan memunggahikan. Pakcik kutip ikan-ikan kembung pecah perut ini yang sudah dibuangke tepi. Dengan bangkai busuk ini pakcik sambung hidup anak-anak pakcik,jangan sampai kelaparan,jangan mati." Mendatar sahaja suara orang tuaitu berkisar-kisar dengan pukulan ombak. Dia terbatuk-batuk berjalan, meninggalkan aku dengan wang lima ringgitdi hujung kaki, dua plasik berisi ikan busuk yang sudah mula dihurunglalat. Aku terduduk menangis semahu-mahunya. Aku mempunyai wang yangboleh membeli segala kemewahan dunia.Cuma aku belum mampu membelisesuatu yang ada dalam diri orang tua itu.

*"jika tidak dapat apa yang kita suka...belajarlah utk menyukai apa yangkita dapat.

got this from email...

The rememberance

2008-11-23T08:20:00.000-08:00

Last friday aku nye last cycle for pediatric department which is very hectic.. tapi i found out it was more fun than i expected especially dealing with the kids.Cant remember how many patient i got.. but few of them are still inside my mind.Lots of them are having a problem with the heart disease , most of them diagnosed for Congenital Heart Disease.

2gmbr kat sebelah ni actually dari patient from pulmonology department , name die abramov.. if im not mistaken he was diagnosed for simply viral infection of throat.. but some investigation still going due to cyst formed near the tonsil... maybe he will be refer to ENT dept . Lots of differential diagnosis should be taken into consideration..

So mase last day tu.. mirul brought his camera.. so kite org main la tangkap2 gambar kan.. ade yg nyempat ajak patient main kad terup.. (haha main bantai je ejaan)... si abramov ni tau aku nye last day jumaat tu... tp mule2 die taktau.. then die tanye.. isnin nanti dtg lagi tak.. aku ckp tak..
sbb ade class kat hospital lain plak kan.. member pon lari masuk bilik...then die soh aku tunggu for a while ....

Untill this 2photos came out.. terkejut lak aku.. die kate die nak hadiah kan lukisan die ni kat aku...bakat gak budak ni...

NARUTO WITH HIS DRAGON KOT? ade ke? naruto 9tails fox la! haha

wohhh happy seh... ade gak ingatan aku kat dak2 kecik ukraine ni..
anyway thanks for the pics ni...
sampai bile2 aku akan ingat...

rindu la plak nak lepak ng dak2 ni lagi..
harap2 dorang ni semue survive la... wish everything goes fine ...
u all can do it !
LETS ROCK THE WORLDD!

Blues rock legend of the day

2008-11-22T03:26:00.000-08:00

JAMES MARSHALL HENDRIX
november 27,1942 - september 18 1970

Widely recognized as one of the most creative and influential musicians of the 20th century, Jimi Hendrix pioneered the explosive possibilities of the electric guitar. Hendrix's innovative style of combining fuzz, feedback and controlled distortion created a new musical form. Because he was unable to read or write music, it is nothing short of remarkable that Jimi Hendrix's meteoric rise in the music took place in just four short years. His musical language continues to influence a host of modern musicians, from George Clinton to Miles Davis, and Steve Vai to Jonny Lang.

Jimi Hendrix, born Johnny Allen Hendrix at 10:15 a.m. on November 27, 1942, at Seattle's King County Hospital, was later renamed James Marshall by his father, James "Al" Hendrix. Young Jimmy (as he was referred to at the time) took an interest in music, drawing influence from virtually every major artist at the time, including B.B. King, Muddy Waters, Howlin' Wolf, Buddy Holly, and Robert Johnson. Entirely self-taught, Jimmy's

Life Unpredictable

2008-11-20T15:30:00.000-08:00

Too many of us wait to do the perfect thing, with the result we do nothing. The way to get ahead is to start now. While many of us are waiting until conditions are "just right" before we go ahead, others are stumbling along, fortunately ignorant of the dangers that beset them. By the time we are, in our superior wisdom, decided to make a start, we discover that those who have gone fearlessly on before, have, in their blundering way, traveled a considerable distance. If you start now, you will know a lot next year that you don't know now, and that you will not know next year, if you wait.

Life , Journey & Dream

2008-11-20T15:03:00.000-08:00

I prepared excitedly for my departure, as if this journey had a mysterious significance. I had decided to change my mode of life. "'til now," I told myself, "you have only seen the shadow and been well content with it; now, I am going to lead you into the substance."

MOUNT AiPetry

2008-11-20T14:02:00.000-08:00

last couple weeks , kiteorg gi ai perti... saje nak wat photoshoot... mule bajet cam malas.. cam.. ape la sgt yg ade atas awan tu.. tapi jangkaan aku silap beb...lawa gile.. aku rase cam tak caye..
kiteorg gerak dlm kol9 lebey.. almost 10 la.. kalau ikutkan plan asal.. kol 8...peh... timing tanak kalah.. kakaka janji melayu.. biase la.. haha tapi selambe.. lambat skit pon ok... bus belambak2... start amek bas kat vakzal (station) kene gi yalta dulu... then only sampai yalta baru la kene amek bus lain utk gi tmpt ni.. naik bus no bape tah...tapi kiteorg tanye local ppl la.. cane nak gi sane.. adus... aku da lupe ape name tmpt tu..

sebaik je kiteorg smpi.. nak naik atas tu kene gune cable car.. tiket naik je 40 griven.. turun 40 griven..so 80griven la.. agak mahal.. tapi da sampai.. kene la naik kan..
perjalanan cable car ni... dari bawah.. sampai atas.. sgt menarik...cam melalui 3 lapisan.
1st kite akan lalu lapisan dari darat sampai sebelum awan... camne ayat aku ni...
2nd kite akan lalu lapisan awan.. selame beberape saat.. time tu... mmg putih je sekeliling.. best gile..
3r... lapisan atas awan.... pergh.. kagum! ciptaan ALLAHswt mmg terbaik!

2gambar kenangan kat aipetri.. malas letak lebih2... tenet ni lembap plak kang...gambar atas tu.. aku amek time sunset.. kol bape tah.. tak sure.. tapi yg penting aku dpt tgk sunset lebih awal dari org2 kat darat tu... the best experience i ever had.. lagi satu gambar ni.. member2 photographer..
bole kate photofreak.. from left - shahril , zamir , me , andau and siti.. izzy tukang tgkp gambar.. so sure la die takde dlm ni...

kat atas puncak ni.. byk bende boleh buat.. horse riding , trekking , parachuting (?) ...
kat atas ni jugak aku jumpe pokok yg ala2 cite lord of the ring yg berumur lebih dari 10000taun.. bapak la lame nye...

so lepas dpt jg tgkp gambar sunset.. kiteorg kene lari balik.. sbb cable car tu abes kol 5.. kalau terlepas.. kene tido hotel kat atas tu la... adoi...tak mampu la kan...

anyway.. sape2 yg lom pegi.. silekan... the best journey ever!

-travelphotojournal-

beli apple

2008-11-20T13:53:00.001-08:00

hari ni aku beli apple...
sekilo 5griven..
kaler merah...

so basically aku akn ckp buah tu ialah apple merah..
logik kan aku..
:)

Pediatric Exam

2008-11-20T13:12:00.000-08:00

hoooyeh... dah abes da satu exam.. peds.... subject paling aku takleh blah...
bukan ape.. actually lebey kurang jugak ng disease org dewase... tapi still peds ni lebih specific pade dak2 kecik kan... so basically agak susah bagi aku utk ingt bende2 yg remeh...
cam FEEDING... kene kire volume la, berat la height la.. ye la aku paham la... kang mak budak dtg tanye aku.. 'camne mck nak kasi anak makcik makan ye.. baru 3bulan umur... leh kasi skit tips tak'
adoi.. cane nak jawab kan.. kalau aku tak study bende ni.. at last terpakse la study ng hapal...
paling aku tak suke nak buat menu... leceh tul la.. igt restoren ke.... tapi tu la.. nak kasi baby2 modern baru ni makan.. kene la teratur skit kan...
tp org dulu2.. selambe je die radak ( ade ke perkataan ni? ) anak2 die makan.. semue bende kasi... umur 3 bulan... bukan takat durian.. petai , ulam2 , biji cempedak...rilek je kasi makan.. hidup cam biase jugak budak tu.. membesar gak.. cume kadang2 ade yg besar jadik sengal2.. kadang2 genius pon ade.. hohooh.. tapi ape2 pon aku stress gile... peds wat aku stress gile...
tapi bile ade stress tu.. ade la pengubatnye.... yg sentiase wat aku smile... patient aku.. dak2 kecik ni.. cute abes la.. nanti aku nak post la gambar.. skang ni takde lagi... sbb gambar2 tu kat mirul...
sian dorang kecik2 da sakit.. ade yg sakit.. mak bapak plak tinggal kat spital.. tanak ngaku anak.. adoi.. camni nye manusie pon ade...
berbalik pade exam aku tadi... dlm soalan.. suruh refer Ultrasound patient...yg ade Cholelithiasis... (gallstone) tp takde pon ultrasound ni.. menyirap bandung tul... maybe hilang kot... nasib la leh jwb seskit diff diagnos... bulshit @#@$@#$!# tak baik carut.. islam marah..
ape2 pon da abes stress aku kat pediatric department..
yees!!!1 esok rilek sket.. just pegi buat ward round and 'akurastsia' in english - clerk patient..
leh la aku lepak ng patient2 aku yg kenit2 tu.. dorang happening beb.. siyes.. layan plak lepak ng timo , bairam , david , denis ,bla bla bla... esok kite jumpe...
lets rock the WARD! ohoh

thursday is futsal

2008-11-20T12:48:00.000-08:00

anyway hari ni practice futsal ng team OLE F.C ... team dak2 ni consist of arep ,topek ,shahril,edy,majid ,azad,hasry,cipel and zam... saje la aku , wan kecik , ng ee nak join dorang nye team training...
takde la training sgt... sampai2 trus main.. dulu ade gak lari2 , warm up bagai.. skang takde da... bantai je main trus.. kalau cramp nasibla...
adoi... semue pon komplen pasal shooting.... kate zam...aduh... payah tol la nak constant shooting ni... kate arep plak.. camne la nak shoot laju.... paling tak leh blah topek.. manjang shooting nak keLAUT je... ohhoho.. aku pon same.. rembat manjang nak merapu...
actually kate2 pakar... nak shooting ni... kene ade point kat bola tu.. kalau betul la kite shoot kene point tu.. sure bola tu pegi baiknye cam rooney nye shooting...
tapi masalah nye masing2 dah download video semue... semue teknik dorang da ajar.. cam haram jugak... hahaha...adoi la.. rase cam masuk skola sukan... haha maybe semue tension kot.. hari2 nak blaja... pepagi da gi spital.. dah la sejuk... pastu petang2 skali skale dpt main bola pon layan.. lepas tension kat bola.. tu yg merembat merapu2...
anyway... futsal ni onw part of exercise jugak... so its good tho...
ahad ade tournament.. demmit. la.. malas tol nak main tournament.... gabra , cuak pressure.. takleh handle...
good luck la kat team aku ahad ni... vs d hang la plak...
good luck to ole fc tu...
janji rock...

I dont live today

2008-11-20T12:42:00.003-08:00

Erm.. actually da bertaun lamenye tak berblogging... bosan boring hambar... nak tulis pon malas...
ade org kasi idea buat photojournal blog + travel + life blog... so maybe nak gabung semue bende2 ni jadik satu...

Will I live tomorrow?
Well I just can't say.

but here i am to start my blog! hoho

Bold As Love

2008-11-20T12:33:00.000-08:00

One of my favourite blues rock legend ,

by JIMI HENDRIX

Anger, he smiles,
towering in shiny metallic purple armour
Queen Jealousy, envy waits behind him
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground

Blue are the life-giving waters taken for granted,
They quietly understand
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on
But they're all bold as love, yeah, they're all bold as love
Yeah, they're all bold as love
Just ask the axis

My red is so confident that he flashes trophies of war,
and ribbons of euphoria
Orange is young, full of daring,
But very unsteady for the first go round
My yellow in this case is not so mellow
In fact I'm trying to say it's frigthened like me
And all these emotions of mine keep holding me from, eh,
Giving my life to a rainbow like you
But, I'm eh, yeah, I'm bold as love
Yeah, yeah
Well I'm bold, bold as love (hear me talking, girl)
I'm bold as love
Just ask the axis (he knows everything)
Yeah,
yeah,
yeah!